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jueves, 18 de marzo de 2010

The PUMA's hill

The PUMA's hill



Puerto chuchuhuasi, which means man's house was an old town of the fierce Bracamoros. Those brave warriors who resisted being conquered by the apricots from the south of the rune world. They lived there with all their families in a single house unlike their enemies who took office Jibaro across from the river bank they called Cocha Puma, or also named as Puma car, but the other guys knew pe as chin chin. Adults always stopped the buses resondrando (children) to not diverge more than they should, and that the custom of the other bank was cutting off the heads and reduce them to put them as necklaces around their necks. They were peaceful, but also great warriors and great merchants who carried many products of their land to the north. Sometimes allied with tallanes tumbis to go beyond trade in their raids. Instead the Jivaro were very different to them, they built houses and lived in trees, not cooked their food and caught the trees and hunted for food only raw meat, including that of the runes, that to them disgusted. So I had much fear. They also very far away in years to that point, they told their ancestors who had the same lifestyle, but who came runes sages said they came across the sea and taught them to live as rune and not as Jibaro. So they learned to make pots of land that was always wet and became sticky



but that when they bake the fire became heavy and they could cook things that deeply touched her lips with which he had been taught the foreigners came from the great big river that was visible from the great apu Porculla. They lived in the great forest, but occasionally peeked at the heights of great apu to spot the Indians who lived in small houses with dirt roofs. There were many houses and they frightened her, so do not let themselves see and when they saw one of these runes was approaching, they immediately hid deeper into the forest.
In those years did not care, rather than fix their big house and fishing in the great puma inlet. Children played on the banks of the hunt and were thrilled when a small fish which immediately took most of the mothers who was in charge of cooking for the family. They wanted to cooperate and the other major runes. The adults laughed whenever they saw the eagerness of the urchins buses (small children). Among them was Quincho, with its snub nose, almost deformed, with well pronounced belly, her bowed legs, but who dreamed one day be the ruler of his nation and to travel through the territories where many animals live in the ruling apu puma. Being tried in the logs that brought the cougar cocha, dreaming that he would travel by car you ever had great purpose and that only he could cross Puquina apu, bringing a new wife for his family, that's what had the greatest . When I was in the water, straining all his strength to grow in strength and courage, preparing for the feats he was devising in his little mind and in his early age. This was in past its region, where the forest used to be, who knows he was lucky and could see the apu puma running or jumping in the streams. Every day, after collecting firewood for the house and bring the bananas for food was running as far as possible from other children in the district, so you will not steal their dreams that he was planning to do when and starter at parties as you deem fit to throw their responsibility, wanted to be the best of all, so that their achievement is conveyed in all languages and in all counties. In many times rebuked him, and once told her parents that the filth, to go where they are the apus, if it does once again, will give an example, it is not desirable to disturb the forest apus only be those who are older and trained to survive in the midst of it, many dangers lurk for those who put them to the Indians who enter his domain. But no attention. He followed the path traced and entered his heart more to the rock from which the APU goes into the territory of the Jivaro. He saw it as very beautiful place, there were many fruits and delicious taste that began with great zeal and interest, so they were tasty.



What I found odd is that the sun never set, this was always in the middle of the sky, was scared and started running, but did not know in which direction. He kept running around everywhere, to the despair of not finding the way, his heart quickened, he seemed to be out of his chest by the huge roar that did. She started screaming with all his might, in that he froze in his presence was a spectacled bear with claws gripped and likely to destroy it, in this surprise appearance and the Apu mountain lion lunged at the bear, locked in a struggle which won the bear.



Then he looked straight into his eyes and froze up staying in the same place forever. In his community all went looking for the neighborhood, and went on for several days, one night only hear their cries, but not from where they were, but what frightened them, is that later turned into the cry of the great Apu Puma, and that gave them much more afraid, so I became accustomed to hearing the cry of barbecue and then search the cry of the apu.

Tupac Isaac II
Juan Esteban Villalobos Yupanqui
http://juanestebanyupanqui.blogspot.com

martes, 16 de marzo de 2010

THE REBEL CHAMI AWQASISA

THE REBEL CHAMI AWQASISA
Slender, with very small size, which had been about to tie his waist to the point that almost could not breathe because he was dedicated to the new Sapa Inca. The oracles spoke that she was the wife of a warrior who cries blood. The mamaconas took pains to make it the most beautiful. As early girl character was terrible however, ran like a little doe around the farms in the counties near the acllahuasi.



Morenita but with fine features, his eyes were lively and jumping, moving with a speed in all directions, thinking all those around him that I was staring directly Chami Awqasisa beautiful. His mother was as beautiful as the stars of the evening, the Aymara Wara, as a secondary wife who had been educated as a warrior and was in every battle that led the Sapa Inca Apu, his stole to defend against any aggression from their enemies. From her womb came the petite Chami. Never want to lose their freedom and left the house of those chosen to go through the fields and play with the little runes of the ayllu. I had no brothers but his mother and brothers of Father always bored him. Seemed very distant to his Father, just once I caress your hair and take it to sit on his lap, fell asleep, then did not see it despite the oracle of catechin him poised to become the future main Sapa Inca Coya to be chosen among the fittest of the children of all panakas Incas.
Since starting as a teenager, I notice changes in your body, as had all of the ayllu warmis and who were in the acllahuasi. There the mamaconas taught him that this had to happen and had to prepare to take as wives and main inka raptin warmi future that had just been born. He had named the baby as the new son of the Condor, and tata wilk. She wondered, as might be the wife who was still very young, if you have recently been born. I could not understand the decisions of the elders and chiefs amautas and the Apus of all nations. He followed his own instincts before any decision could take their caretakers and trainers. But he had several times to be punished for their profligacy in their actions, that they did know, but she continued her free spirit. What I did not understand why your body changes, she said it was time that Tata would have to devote to Wilkes to bless you and may be accepted into the Inka apu panaka again. But then he realized it was not the only one who would be in the battle. Many warmis were also the candidates and that they had many oracles predicted the same fate as hers. All very beautiful and with the same hope that she was not interested. All wanted to be the brides of young born Raptin Apu Inka Sapa.



There was the pretty Away Culli learned of the nation, the nation Sampayo Ranwan Tallan, and other beautiful girls with beautiful figure that had been brought from their countries by the oracles who relapsed in their persons, all were daughters of chiefs and nobles of their nations. She felt a little jealous, because she should marry who was really his brother Father. I did not understand, because he was not allowed to see him, but that if the rest of warmis aclla, who were treating him. They said it was very beautiful, like the light of tata Wilka, emanating from her sweet face. She does not grudge even though the boy's mother, the beautiful Mama HUCH'UYKOYA was his mother's rival for the love of his Sapa Inka. So I look with disdain for being outside the Panakas, all women of Panakas women were to be assigned the Sapa Inka main or secondary. High schools were the most warlike and brave, and who accompanied his master in all the wars they had with other nations. She did not want to be principal, it would have to stay in the holy city to meet the needs of panakas and lose wars, part I could not be next to his master.
So he grew up and got the date on which the sapa Inca should choose who would be the coya of its new panaka, with which to found a new for himself. She was a woman and throws very hard and right in your hands. He had known all the skills of handling weapons in the attack and defense. The ceremony in preparation for the maidens panakas summarized in the beginning with a three-day fast in which only chewing the sacred corn harvested in Vilcabamba in the land of the sun. He did and once on the day of presentation, dressed in the finest clothes Vicuna wool tender to have the same level as the Apu Inka Sapa Raptin, that in terms of clothes that were designed to panakas in the area of the Andes. Then came the day but was not sure she wanted to be the Coya. Once taken to Coricancha look Inka sitting raptin your future mate sitting Apu Great Sapa Inca Yupanqui, ruler with your voice harsh and powerful that he was afraid of it. So he decided to not be the main and ran from the great hall.



To which I pronounce humu Willak was ominous, both for the people to the rulers and foreboding that was the end of the great nation, then realized that would come to teach some bad wiracocha evil and murder and destroy the entire nation. It is therefore banned all runes to assist Awqasisa Chami. Then she rolled across the nation, becoming a shy person until it turned into a large hill in the nation of the Culli, assure that these lands would be born the son of the new condor affront to forgive the son of the sun. Nobody knows what is that mountain, they say that there is a great treasure that only the true son of the condor will find, to restore the world's nations rune.

Tupac Isaac II
Juan Esteban Villalobos Yupanqui
http://juanestebanyupanqui.blogspot.com

IN MEMORY OF CAMILO - The rebel without a rifle.

IN MEMORY OF CAMILO
The rebel without a rifle.



Sitting, staring at the other side. He remembered the cool wind crashing on my face and in that time. Since the years passed, but had no regrets, just sad. For those friends in my youth that leave. And that death had robbed me. We met the promise of not dying if not fulfilled what we believed as truth. And there was watching the river, which crossed many times with Connor, his friend since we had our youth to battle as we put the world Quixote. It gave us longing to leave our land, well at least where I grew up and did my studies. But what is most real when we met at us disappointed by a speech that seemed more emboldened, but in essence it was only words of someone who never even dare to look out the window of his house. We thought that this guy Rolando, for all its verbiage, we found him just a brabucón like those guys in the Chap stick to that offered us after school for not having let one of her companions to teach college entrance. We could not leave. Nobody at school had permitted it. As Cameron laughed when he remembered that the idea was to lower the skirt that teacher who bear wanting to enter our classrooms, knowing it was one of the most representative of the ranks of the APRA. From there we was born to do what was in our power to make our people development. At the end of high school made us take different paths in life, but would only be for the moment because the future we would have booked other tasks very beautiful, always remembering our youth.
We missed several years and when heading into the parish where he would spend my time in ministry in this way we are and we recognized. We had passed a stage in our life, you'd no longer drive trucks, and you had to sacrifice for the rest of your brothers might be raised. But what they really wanted to do in the classroom with young adolescents thought they looked with enthusiasm Mariategui readings or accounts of the professor of political economy over the legendary social activist Luis de la Puente. Our minds were absorbed in listening to the stories the teacher and we were touring our nations and to make justice our flag.
I invitastes lunch and decided to do what our young minds planned at that stage. We went first to create schools that work for free so we did. Traveling through the land of migrants who took possession of the lands of the Bracamoros. There in full high forest, with forest start working without asking the sun to the old state, but that if we ask for recognition. But we were not from the ranks of government, after we chose to continue teaching those children who were born in the new lands. Whenever we discussed our ideas, as without frankly disgusted by our differences. Only an understanding of the ideas of his friend. He chose a different path, but I knew, for you had already fallen in love with a half-breed, having had your little offspring. Maybe your partner would not have understood that you had taken the decision to follow what I did. Do not bother me. But it was the first goodbye to a friend so dear. That never succumbed to disavow his friendship and succor in the worst times that the friend had to face the decisions of their ideas. As I recall the farewell, as if it were yesterday. Your in the house of your father and your partner, prepare the best meal to say goodbye to friends. We sat and talked at length about childhood, friends from school. Of our city where he spent our adolescence. Of the books that opened a beam of light, to understand things that we could now see clearly. We felt that we would no longer sure. The decision meant that only my back in a coffin or triumphant line of my ideas. We embrace all, your family, who already felt like mine. As the sadness of leaving such beautiful land, where I is the smell of coffee. His morning when I woke up with the hiss of all animals announcing a new day. Or the small schoolhouse, with its poorly done all folders for your improvised carpenter, so that our students not to sit on the floor, like children in other communities. Or the board, so heavy that you had made one of the largest thallus community logs to make furniture of the school. And as I laughed at your desk famous professor, who seemed to have done by a sculptor's apprentice.



When I left you, my brother, it was a beautiful time in my life, passing at home with Mama Herlinda, school, school will never forget. Nor forget the day you die. Looking at your face and emaciated by disease, without hope of life and the final goodbye. Farewell peace guerrilla brother, who sought peace without a gun.

Tupac Isaac II
Juan Esteban Villalobos Yupanqui
http://juanestebanyupanqui.blogspot.com

domingo, 14 de marzo de 2010

COUNTRY OF THE WONDERS OF LEON Trahtemberg.

COUNTRY OF THE WONDERS OF LEON Trahtemberg.
As always Mr. Trahtemberg is like Abraham would say ironically Valdelomar criticized Lima society. "Peru is Lima, Lima is the Union street, on Jiron de la Union is the Palais Concert, and the concert Palias me" . So Mr. Leon believes the same thing, but adds that the university file is peaceful. NOT know that in Peru there are many nations that are invisible to your eyes is the same attitude as an educational psychologist was when he mentioned that Peruvian society can not be measured with Western standards.



To answer went on a tangent, but could never answer the question asked.
Start by doing the question: how relevant is the school education in academic performance? Referring to the survey conducted by Arlette Beltran and Karlos La Serna of Pacific University. What that says is that this study population segment represents and which can not be generalized to the entire population. Or is it as dull as the educational psychologist who works for phone, unable to see the most obvious, which is the difference between a nation and subjective and unreal real number of nations that seek their inclusion in the economic and social life in this territory controlled by subjectivism. And is that only knows the territory, its geography apparent that only you can see when you visit any tourist does, except that he knows more of our land that our brand academics.
In what would be recognized, and it is true and valid, as to the observation made at pre-university schools mislabeled. Here, as educators we should denounce the abuses done in these studies centers pedagogical principles, as only interested in the level of numeracy and the odd word element, not including other areas that are more than essential. And this as a student without an identity, it sounded hollow everything you want to learn and teach, it does not make sense, hence should be paramount courses that deal with identity, leaving lake and some courses not are scientists and that have nothing to do with the identity of each human group.
We should add Trahtemberg what you think about the quality of education. If the bottom line for is the institutional environment in the school, so it should be in all estates, as I add to their position they have to correct something, but we must also add that it is also conserve dignity of the teaching profession in terms of salaries. How is it possible that any child who enters the national and sub police officer and quit receiving a higher salary than teachers hired and that does not reach even for the month of maintenance. The fallacies to which we have subjected the government of Alan García, who deceives the teacher is above the salaries of all state administrative system. If you look for a professional who has spent five years studying in a state university, and those ending in a private, working in the state, leaving the labor area to receive a salary of misery that comes even to the three hundred dollars and a policeman instead of the national police prepares only a single year end earning twice what she earns a master contract.



Here is what was done to rescue the former ruler that if, at least care about the pay gap for teachers, but with this we are going back to points that are unimaginable. And that's what the teachers' union says, is the question I would and most reply, nothing. To this end the Government has implemented the strategy in the contest in November to enter most of their coreligionists, and it did in the first decade of his government, which resulted as higher education faculty, who could not had stepped on a college. Thus we have the case of a teacher in all evaluations of the training and competition in the bag a little less than zero, but nevertheless in the final qualifying insolvency has taken 19.8, or is that just because a question was the super genius. That is the APRA peers.
Tupac Isaac II
Juan Esteban Villalobos Yupanqui
http://juanestebanyupanqui.blogspot.com

sábado, 6 de marzo de 2010

LAW OF INTERNAL DISPLACEMENT-SWORD ON INDIGENOUS PEOPLES TO DEATH.

They were changed only the territories and the protagonists Creoles, but nothing changed their methods ... Slaughter at Sand Creek in 1864! Latin America today!


The Sand Creek Massacre

LAW OF INTERNAL DISPLACEMENT-SWORD ON INDIGENOUS PEOPLES TO DEATH.
Mr. Smith seems to have learned after the lesson of Bagua in the traitor and dealer Yehude Simons Munaro cover her shoulders achievement for the crime of genocide committed by the brothers and Wampis Awajun. Yes, she has learned but for the benefit of multinationals and their own by the big commissions he receives for the gift you are doing and intends to do with impunity laws and their friends in Congress are hasty. So you have to put warning to all communities to undertake one of the biggest struggles is against the same revisionism that is your ally, making corruption more evidence in the Fujimori-Montesinos with parties whose visible face the daughter of genocidal Fujimori, Keiko Fujimori's will. For all have the ability to disappear from the map to all the indigenous and peasant communities, to give to big transnational corporations to loot all the resources that are good for their interests.
To the rulers of the D.L. 20,653 in 1974 known as the Law of Native Communities and Agrarian Promotion de la Selva is a dead letter, but rather are dedicated to making life miserable for all communities in a spirit more than all that is part of ethnocide, for which this legal protection has been systematically maimed for the purpose is of permissibility, which had its most adverse effects with Baguaso, which certainly has drawn a cloak of impunity defending the then Minister to donate Mercedes Cabanillas Bustamante, the deserter Yehude Munaro Simons and others like the current minister of economy Doña Mercedes Araoz. Is that everyone wants to commodify land, as expressed in the Neoliberal extremist Hernando de Soto. What is this watching my brothers Mapuche who were tricked into their territories and which went extinct in the Chilean cities, from this experience is taking Alan García. With this new Bill that it has launched the executive is to legalize the expropriation of ancestral lands to give to the multinational companies, it had been allied with some mestizo pressed to land for cultivation have invaded the ancestral properties indigenous communities, which they have been checked by annulling the applicability of these.
To all this must be added the propaganda videos are doing Hernando de Soto, comparing the Eskimo Indian millionaire with Awajun Poor. With which it wants to fund the plunder of the territories of indigenous communities to be left to large corporations. So are expanding oil contracts, logging. In this last example we have as to what happened in the San Martin, where oil palm has been implemented, the sole administrator are being processed and the Romero family, which incidentally is very marked its alliance with the ruling party, although they are allied with anyone holding political power, or who are eligible for funding, that is the reality, there is nothing hidden.
But the main thing that says Hernando de Soto, who is the merchant's siren song of neoliberalism is that it seeks to show that communal land titles of our nations, are invalid, here are two things that we must also give know that these communal land titles do not capture the worldview of what comes to be the territory for indigenous communities, not from the viewpoint of the indigenous world view that has created this law, but somehow protects lands, but is against law is what he wants to go Hernando de Soto in the second place, but what is the purpose, anyway with this protection that was given to the law of communal lands, is protecting a portion of the territory of predation to that used capitalism, with its neoliberal conception, so it is giving this project of internal displacement. Such is the case with the great example set to displace hydro Inambari about thirty eight thousand villages of three regions such as Puno, Cuzco and Madre de Dios covering forty-one thousand hectares of forest reserve of the Bahuaja Sonene. Just as the native community of San Lorenzo, who are custodians of this area.



International law also supports the use and ownership of the territories of indigenous communities, so we discussed this law would infringe the rights of communities recognized in international treaties and conventions. To which all Amazonian and Andean indigenous protest the lifting of the intentions that have been evolving.

Tupac Isaac II
Juan Esteban Yupanqui Villalobos
http://juanestebanyupanqui.blogspot.com

viernes, 5 de marzo de 2010

THE FIRST FLIGHT OF THE CONDOR

THE FIRST FLIGHT OF THE CONDOR
And feathers had swelled, the overhead cristina had thickened, with its curved beak was taking more consistency. His jet-black feathers were thicker and the color flashed in the distance. Since the mother had stopped feeding and began to lose weight were the most feared moments. The starting his first flight across the mountain range as crumpled as he showed his dominions to which he would have to fly over. I could see only from his great summit clouds moved intermittently each day, and when these had much sun melted and was approaching the end of the gorge to watch the beautiful landscapes and animal crops.



His mother scolded him whenever he approached closer to the precipice where his home was at the top, near the top of the Yerupaja. The Apu of Huaylas. Often, some runes had come to his home, but watching him respectfully and withdrew after leaving meals, which nearly did not like, it was seed, which was not used. The same thing over dark water that smelled very strong. It had been six months since his birth and soft plumage had already changed more than once. The mother told her it was time to learn to fly as the Apu of all the majestic Kuntur Yerupaja where to fly out all the Andes, from Tierra del Fuego to the northern massifs where the whole ground was white and lived water color bears.
Came the first day and I was nervous, his mother had packed with rich food they brought in their beaks, to have more strength and can fly with her. He got on the end of the gorge while her mother gave her directions to fly. Her father watched from afar as her offspring begin the road, that had also undertaken when his mother and father did make its first flight. Passing on wings like to be promoted to the draft he would achieve great heights and achieve huge distances. His father was flying from the southern land of fire to the region of the Caribs, whose sea was very wild and nesting in people who ate him alive to the Indians who dared to enter their seas and waters.



The mother left the gorge and was launched into the void, making all stretch their wings. The young scion ran after her and achievement also stretch their wings and feel the wind pushing your body towards the top of the firmament, was seen in its greatest splendor tata Wilke, they tried to scream but they had not taken his voice Tata offend or breast Willka Keel, as were those who woke up the largest apus so they are in the life of the Indians. Immediately to the indications, lowered their wings stronger and straightened his neck, in order to achieve greater height. He did it twice more vigorously with all his might and could be above its great apu Yerupaja, where his home in the most inaccessible cliffs, there beside the water that had turned to stone. He was accompanied by tata willka keel and breast, was beautiful to see them on both sides and feel that the manager would then notify the runes and the coming of one another, as did his grandfather and then his tata tata daddy. But this was a long time, if that happened his father would be launched from the apu, would bring together its wings with its beak in his chest and throw down the cliff to be reborn the new Tata kuntur Willka keel and breast, was the eternal revival race sacred protectors of the great Apu Sapa Inca, the energy of your flight so the runes do not forget their people and have respect for their nations.
All looked at him runes when it flew by their heads and lifted his hand in token of respect. Miro also a great car and dozed dwelt within which all sorts of creatures who liked to draw runes their guts, especially those living in its vicinity.
Continued to fly around for the summit of the entire sky where the great apu wiracocha the creator of everything that is kuntur and runes as well. It felt much excitement at seeing far not ended, and it seemed that his eyes could not determine the order that could see nor reach to reach that end of the heavens, that he had told his father that kunturs be required to reach many, that nobody had done to annoy the great Tata Willka. He felt it was tiring, seeing that not come to that first flight, so he gave signs to his mother would return home. Her mother said she would continue with their flight, along with his father and go home and bringing food. So he did and come home happy and proud to have made its first flight.

Tupac Isaac II
Juan Esteban Yupanqui Villalobos
http://juanestebanyupanqui.blogspot.com

martes, 2 de marzo de 2010

TRAGEDY IN CHILE my condolences.


TRAGEDY IN CHILE my condolences.
Several months ago we wrote of the political tragedy that Chile would live again by the government in their twenties who had her hands on the coalition, which has thrown into the trash people's hopes, but that they themselves commissioned to do more plausible, taking the image became more than the same neo-liberal supporters of Don Adam Smith. And it was not so evident that the implementation and consolidation of neoliberalism in land Mapocho. To which the Coalition did everything that was in their power to fire and sword to consolidate the social and political scheme, but had his counterpart, his detractors and those who remember, are the famous penguins, which attacked the already municipalized schools. It was the most heroic deeds that students performed without further address their needs and which set back the government, which was thought to be socialist, but he was only infiltrated minions of followers of Adam Smith.
But it still remains the struggles of the brothers Mapuche, Rapa Nui, Atacama, Diaguitas; Kolla, Aymara, Quechua, Kaweskar; Yagan and still survive the tax ethnocides foreigners in the territories that called Chile, especially some Chonos brothers. I know they are about to disappear as a nation, but still in my memory are their customs and songs and depict it as their lonko toki ulmen mollkineanti itranpramn wirilum wingkul Treng Treng kuipeden Creoles and whites. May it fill you with pride message, as nations continue to struggle and independence that Mother Nature, Mother Earth is on your side, for the insult that they do everyday whites who murdered millions of brothers who disappeared whole nations to be done in your territory.
But still no one raises his voice to support them, but older siblings are also subdued and imprisoned and persecuted for defending their nations against nations imposed by the colonial bourgeoisie began to Bolivar, San Martin, the only thing they did is give the power to his peers to his own social class, hence not believe they came to save First Nations, unless the contrary came to save the bourgeoisie of colonialism. This we should bear clear. Independence is not one of us held, if not those who actually hold economic power in our territories and they formed their nations, but which are not ours but theirs, because we do not feel in those constituencies which were once the nations of our ancestors. We hear the drums and the voices of all children to let us know that we are from many nations to the Western man tried to subjugate and murder tip made us adopt their customs and religions with which we do not agree because nothing that comes before blood is good if not convinced that this will bring new seed that will bear fruit in our fields. To continue the talks and Apus Tokis to see what they need to emancipate our people and out of the defects to which we are subjected.
So my condolences to the mestizo brothers and sisters who were fired from that territory to the rivers in the south to where the stone was left by my ancestors, cairns, with due respect for until then the sun came emitting his son from the navel of the world. With these songs for the restoration of our order, in which we lived very happily until he came to our lands Viracocha hair on the face and from which many of us do not know, where is our nation and wandered astray in the Mark that created them, like stray dogs with scabies in our bodies and the wounds that stink every summer approaching, there is not anyone who can heal us. Brothers hope that the sun appears.


Tupac Isaac II
Juan Esteban Villalobos Yupanqui
http://juanestebanyupanqui.blogspot.com

Here I am...